So today I’ve spent most of the day with my little brother who I adore, we’ve been playing Football, Catch, playing Buck-a-roo and reading The Gruffalo. He’s 4 years old and such a smart kid. He started school recently and has been having a hard time with it as he suffers from social anxiety disorder, it’s literally heartbreaking to see him not mixing with the other kids and getting upset at school. Today he asked me if we could go for a walk in the garden and have a talk, he then he sat me down on a chair and grabbed himself one too, this is the following conversation we had; ‘So what do you want to talk about Jack?’ ‘School… A boy the other day hit my head’ ‘Well surely it was an accident?’ ‘Yes it was, but it hurt.. and then I couldn’t stop crying’ ‘Why couldn’t you stop crying’ ‘Because I love my mummy so much’ ‘Mummy loves you too Jack, she’s not always going to be at school with you but you have to remember that she loves you and will be there when you finish, besides School’s fun’ ‘Does it upset you when you hear that I were crying big sis?’ ‘Yes it does, I just want you to be happy and have fun with the other kids’ ‘I won’t cry anymore big sis I promise’ ‘I love you Jack squeeze cuddle?’ ‘I love you too’ I was literally holding back the tears
Anonymous asked: I'm glad i am not the only one and i hope it makes you feel better that you are not the only one. I am having the toughest time getting over my ex girlfriend. I'm finding it hard but don't know what to do really. I hope you find peace soon.
Thank you, I don’t know whether it’s getting over him that I’m finding hard.. I’ll always love him I know that but right now I’m actually happy being on my own I think I need to rebuild myself back up I don’t think I’ve been mentally happy for a while. At the moment with the situation I’m just angry, at so much, being a mug for starters, just loving someone so much and never getting it back, I just feel I don’t know, angry that’s only how I can explain it. What’s happened with your ex? If you want advice I’m here x
Thursday Sep 9 @ 12:09amI’m still so angry…. I mean everything’s pretty amazing right now, I’m actually really happy but as soon as I think of you and everything, I just get so angry it gives me a fucking headache, I’m fed up of having this, I’m hoping in time it’ll go away, it’s so tiring thinking of you and either crying or getting angry, I’m exhausted. I wish I never got so involved, I wish I never fell in love seriously. I never knew love could hurt so much until now and the fact he doesn’t even fucking care literally kills me. Fuck love.
Wednesday Sep 9 @ 11:34pmWhat a day! Everything’s just hit me today, three big slaps to the face. 1st being finding out the truth about where you stayed three weeks ago when we were together, 2nd being, having your ex message me saying I’ve been slagging her off when I haven’t even said anything about her and 3rd you being ‘friends’ with the one person who completely ruined our relationship, seeing that literally broke my heart.
Well that’s it now, I’m prepared to start scrubbing the word ‘mug’ off my forehead which has seemed to be written on with permanent marker for the last 2 and a half years. I’m writing this now, here to remind myself what a shit day it’s been and that now I’ve hit bottom the only way is up!
Sunday Sep 9 @ 10:02pm
